Seriousness....

I'd start by apologizing for my absence but no one reads this yet and so no one cares. Which is good... I don't feel like saying Im sorry. And I don't know why I should. Anyhoo..

I've kind of hit this point in life where a lot of things are beginning to make sense and kind of fall into place. Which is good. I'm at a comfortable place in my life. 25 was a scary thought for me last year but so far so good.

I've learned a lot about me. And that is something no one ever expects that they will need to. Alas, they do.

What I havent grasped and I'm partially ashamed to admit it, is God. I believe in God and Jesus and all the things my bible says. I don't think there are other higher powers out there like some do. I believe in the Christian God. (now if there happens to be anyone reading this please don't go all politically correct on me, I said i'm learning ok??) But my point is, I haven't really grasped my own personal relationship with him. I have prayed and talked and read. But to this day I have never sat down and really focused on that.

But I want to. I believe thats a firm start. I believe that God is waiting for me to come and be the person he wants. Ive just been procrastinating... And I have no excuse i won't blame my laziness on anyone or anything but my own blatant disregard.

I know God forgives, and I know that there are others out there like me who traveled pointlessly and aimlessly through life to some point. But I want to improve my life. I want the joy and bliss of knowing that God is leading my way and i am following. I want the comfort of having someone to talk to when no one is there. I just need to find my niche.