What I'm Loving- Told ya I'd keep up!!!

I am loving this Bible verse:
He who finds a wife finds a good thing
and obtains favor from the Lord-Proverbs 18:22

I am loving that this Sunday marks our first Wedding anniversary!!

I am loving this watch from Citizen Eco Drive:


I'm loving these Jcrew Dresses:





I'm loving that its March already!!!:


And of course I am always loving my mushy and my booty:


P.S. Tomorrow Im gonna post the letter i wrote to mushy for our One Year Anniversary. Its funny so you'll have to read it.

Funday Monday & A Weekend recap

Its Monday night! That means I managed to make it through another Monday. It wasn't that bad. Class was short work was shorter.

This weekend was needed. I had no serious plans and I loved it. My weekends start early... Typically Friday is the beginning of my weekend as I work from home or don't work...

The booty and I ran errands like grabbing some groceries and running by the bank. Then since he behaved I rewarded him with the only thing he asked for... Krispy Kreme. What can I say?? The kid is like his momma... Give him an original glazed doughnut and he is content...

Then we went to the new Hobby Lobby... I fell in love. The first time I went I decided I am officially addicted my sweet friends. We bought some stuff to decorate the house with for Easter.

Then we went to see his grandparents. Had lunch and came home.

Saturday we slept in. HEAVEN. Took the booty to see some friends and then went to Hobby Lobby one more time to pick up a few more things. Came home watched Grown Ups and went to bed.

Sunday was the typical day for us, bibles, cooking, chill time.

I know I know boring... But I'll leave you with a cute picture!


Ok, Ok A couple of pictures

Its not as easy as it looks

It's kind of funny really. Or not. The way we figured out we were having issues getting pregnant. I mean with my first it was a fluke. My birth control failed due to my doctors decision to give me antibiotics... No one told me the two cancelled the Birth control... And I gotta tell you, that was the best thing to ever happen to me.

But this time was different. We started trying a year ago. Stopped taking birth control and thought hey! it should happen fast... And then it didn't... I wasn't getting my monthly period. I wasn't ovulating. But I figured hey it could be normal. I heard sometimes it takes a few cycles to get everything back on track. I never thought that a "few" cycles would turn into months and months of confusion, frustration, arguments with each other,, questioning God, doubting ourselves... My Obgyn is the same one I have had for 4 years now. He delivered booty. And to see concern on his face, made me even more stressed out... Then as time passed our friends began getting pregnant. Everyone around me seemed to be but I wasn't.

It made me sad. When the we found out that my body wasn't producing the hormone progesterone on its own, I felt broken. I cried. My husband, God bless him, acted out the way he thought i needed, which was to show disappointment in my Dr's plan of action. What he didn't realize is that by showing this disappointment he also showed disappointment in me. I was right along side my dr's plans. I agreed with him. Mushy did not... I cried thinking, this is my fault. Its my body so its my fault...

Its not.

I'll be honest there were moments I wanted to give up. I have fought with my husband over things because we weren't communicating clearly.

And then the day came. I realized that it isn't my fault or his or the doctors. And if God wants us to have another child we will. In his time. I know my post earlier stated that I already realzied this... But I have never been able to openly talk about our so called unexplained infertility until now... And I am sharing the story with you.

Just Live!

I could start this post by complaining about everything that has gone wrong today. I could whine and cry and bicker about the little insignifcant things in my life. But after reading about little baby Maddie, I won't. I will not look at the things that are wrong and make mountains out of them. Why? Because there is nothing that has happened to me that could equal what Maddie's poor family is going through.

My heart breaks everytime I read her name. I spent some of my own moments crying for her. Her life was so short and taken away so fast. I know God has a purpose for her but just knowing that she has impacted so many in that little time frame really touches me.

My husband and i are struggling through "Unexplained Infertility". Whatever the heck that means. To me it means that it isn't Gods timing. To me it says, patience will pay off. To me it says my tears of frustration aren't for nothing. To me it says you have a beautiful 3 year old little boy to spoil with pillow fights, tickle wars, blowing bubbles, laughing endlessly, and being a kid again.

I won't spend one selfish second whining about things that happen to me right now. I will however take every spare moment and live. I will live for once. instead of worrying about what time i get to school or work I will enjoy the extra moments I have.

Please pray for peace for Maddie's family in knowing that she is with God. Pray for others who have lost their children or loved ones. My best friend Shannon just brought a beautiful little boy into the world after the loss of pregnancies and one son. i can't tell you how happy it makes me seeing her holding her precious little boy. So while i may not get what I want in my time, I know I will get it in God's

p.s. to my 2 new followers: Thanks ladies!! I am very excited that I now officially have someone reading my thoughts ;)

Note to self...

It is not funny when your three year old stops in the middle of Target and says "ohmigawd! Im sooo spoiled" Ok maybe it is...

It is not funny when said three year old looks you in the face and says "My attitude is no worse than yours!"

It is also not funny when three year old proceeds to look at the cat and say "Tuxie, you will listen to me or i will kick you!"

The top two comments may or may not have come out of my mouth at some point DON'T JUDGE ME!!! however the third comment to the cat was never something that would leave my lips. unless he climbed my leg like a tree or scratching post but seeing as how he has no claws I wouldn't need to say that... What the heck is my toddler learning and from where??

Just like when I threatened him with the ol' "you can't have dessert unless you eat lunch" he looked at me dead serious and says "Who the heck made up that rule?? Thats what I wanna know?!" I died and laughed for about 20 minutes... I'm sure people thought I was delirious and they may have been right.

What I'm loving Wednesday

Hopefully I can stick to this...
I'm loving my bible. I want to find some new verses to keep as my faves

I'm loving these dresses @ JCrew




I'm loving me some sweet tea as usual


I'm loving my Food Network Griddle I got for Christmas It is the best thing ever for me


I'm loving my husband and my son



I'm also loving the springy weather.

Seriousness....

I'd start by apologizing for my absence but no one reads this yet and so no one cares. Which is good... I don't feel like saying Im sorry. And I don't know why I should. Anyhoo..

I've kind of hit this point in life where a lot of things are beginning to make sense and kind of fall into place. Which is good. I'm at a comfortable place in my life. 25 was a scary thought for me last year but so far so good.

I've learned a lot about me. And that is something no one ever expects that they will need to. Alas, they do.

What I havent grasped and I'm partially ashamed to admit it, is God. I believe in God and Jesus and all the things my bible says. I don't think there are other higher powers out there like some do. I believe in the Christian God. (now if there happens to be anyone reading this please don't go all politically correct on me, I said i'm learning ok??) But my point is, I haven't really grasped my own personal relationship with him. I have prayed and talked and read. But to this day I have never sat down and really focused on that.

But I want to. I believe thats a firm start. I believe that God is waiting for me to come and be the person he wants. Ive just been procrastinating... And I have no excuse i won't blame my laziness on anyone or anything but my own blatant disregard.

I know God forgives, and I know that there are others out there like me who traveled pointlessly and aimlessly through life to some point. But I want to improve my life. I want the joy and bliss of knowing that God is leading my way and i am following. I want the comfort of having someone to talk to when no one is there. I just need to find my niche.