Just Live!

I could start this post by complaining about everything that has gone wrong today. I could whine and cry and bicker about the little insignifcant things in my life. But after reading about little baby Maddie, I won't. I will not look at the things that are wrong and make mountains out of them. Why? Because there is nothing that has happened to me that could equal what Maddie's poor family is going through.

My heart breaks everytime I read her name. I spent some of my own moments crying for her. Her life was so short and taken away so fast. I know God has a purpose for her but just knowing that she has impacted so many in that little time frame really touches me.

My husband and i are struggling through "Unexplained Infertility". Whatever the heck that means. To me it means that it isn't Gods timing. To me it says, patience will pay off. To me it says my tears of frustration aren't for nothing. To me it says you have a beautiful 3 year old little boy to spoil with pillow fights, tickle wars, blowing bubbles, laughing endlessly, and being a kid again.

I won't spend one selfish second whining about things that happen to me right now. I will however take every spare moment and live. I will live for once. instead of worrying about what time i get to school or work I will enjoy the extra moments I have.

Please pray for peace for Maddie's family in knowing that she is with God. Pray for others who have lost their children or loved ones. My best friend Shannon just brought a beautiful little boy into the world after the loss of pregnancies and one son. i can't tell you how happy it makes me seeing her holding her precious little boy. So while i may not get what I want in my time, I know I will get it in God's

p.s. to my 2 new followers: Thanks ladies!! I am very excited that I now officially have someone reading my thoughts ;)